Help me decide

Last Monday we went to the Pumpkin Patch with Shannon! She is amazing! She took Cozette's 6 month pictures and our Holiday Family Photo. (I only say Holiday because we are going to do a Thanksgiving Photo Card this year, since we were at the pumpkin patch and all...) So, check out the link under family photos and help us decide which pictures we should get....what do you think?

Thanks again Shannon for a wonderful morning and for capturing our family! How do you do it?

You all are invited...

I am hosting an Uppercaseliving Open House on Oct. 19th from 4:30 to 8:00. Come and go as you please! There is no formal presentation, just come browse, look, enjoy, eat some snacks...If you don't know what uppercaseliving is check out our online catalog at www.uppercaseliving.com, click on "customer log in", register using my demonstrator ID (326346) and registration token (cooley).

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This is the fun one, A PAJAMA PARTY! OK, you don't have to come in your pajamas, but wouldn't that be fun! This is the deal. My good friend Katie just started this business. She is out of Portland and is coming to Hermiston to do a party for me. Her company sells lotions, foot soaks, soaps, you know all those pampering type items. So, her parties are catered to women who are over worked, under paid and in need of some TLC. You can come soak your feet (no one has to touch them except you...and you don't even have to shave your legs), get a facial and a hand massage. I will be serving drinks and snacks. Come enjoy! We will be starting at 6:00pm and it should last until about 8:00pm. I think it would be fun for some of us bloggers to get together and RELAX!

I hope to see you all!
Please let me know if you will be able to make it to either.
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Aaahhh!

Thank you all for your words of encouragement!

Can I just say,
"I love you, Lord, and I lift my voice,
to worship you. Oh, my soul rejoice!"

Friday night with the girls making frozen dinners was AWESOME! I am so thankful for the friends that I am finding through all of you! I don't really have any other friends (isn't that sad!), and I am SO blessed to be apart of this wonderful Christian group of ladies! Thank you, thank you, thank you! So, here's to more blogging and more nights at KISS!

And, I didn't really want to go to church this morning...how sad is that...But sometimes you know, you just do things knowing that God is going to bless you and make it worth your time, right! So, I went! and, I was SO blessed!

Being in this "funk" for the past month or so has not allowed my to "worship" and pour my heart out, but this morning, the Lord was there and I sang, LOUD, and I was quiet, and I cried, and I listened! I loved the opening video that Pastor Chris played about all the things that worship is not...
It's not about the guitar being too loud
It's not about the drums,
It's not about the vocals,
It's not about the correct words,
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It's NOT ABOUT US!
IT'S NOT ABOUT ME!

It is all for Him! That's why we worship, to love, dream, give up, shut up, listen, (and a few others I can't remember...)

Powerful!

I also loved Pastor Daves message about families! It makes me feel more comfortable about my parenting! Respect for authority in the home is SO important! Time outs and spankings are ok! (I don't beat my kid, ok?!?! They are love taps!)

I picked up my Beth Moore, Jesus devotional today! Can't wait to crack it open in the morning!

Thank you all, again and again!

The blues; unwanted and unwelcomed!

I sat down at my computer after putting the girls down for a nap, my intention to post about my life; the truth about my life. I quickly began to scroll through other bloggers posts, enjoying what I was reading and thinking maybe I shouldn't post something so personal and so "disturbing". Then, I saw Dorothy's post and felt relief to know that I am not the only one with these "blues". Thank you Dorothy for your honesty and courage!

So, I remember vaguely feeling a little "blah" after I had Cadence, but I never experienced anything like what I have been feeling lately. It is hard to explain and I would like to blame a lot of it on the hectic schedule that we lead and all of the demands that take over my life, but it is more than that! It is a feeling of empty, loss, and confusion at times. And while I am feeling all of this I can be smiling and laughing with my friends and family... I don't know really what it is other than the "blues"! It is weird, awkward, unwanted and unwelcomed!

I have been struggling to stay in touch with one of the people that I love the most in this world, Cory! It is so hard because he is so quiet and reserved and doesn't notice my awkwardness. So when he doesn't say anything, offer to help me, just be with me, or rub my head and shoulders that are in extreme pain because of my migraines...I get SO UPSET, not mad but an inward "seething" that I have never felt before! But instead of communicating with him, I have been saying nothing, which only makes it worse! I have had so many battles with him in my head during the last month that I feel at this point there is really no need to fight with him at all, because I have already done it time and time again!

Well, 2 days ago I woke up early, before Cory and the girls, and started my day with a devotion. I read Gods Word and I prayed. I haven't done either of these things in a very long time and it did feel good! I have continued to have a devotion every morning since. I don't know that I have felt a complete turn around. But I definately feel more hope and peace than I was feeling 2 days ago.

Something that I really don't understand about this "Postpartum" stuff is, I have never been more blessed and happy with my life, my husband is a great man, my children are adorable and everything I would ask for, and I LOVE my job, but even so, I FEEL NOTHING! Is it really possible to be feeling this way? You know, as I right this a relevation comes over me. That even though I love my family and my job and other earthly things, they are not and should not be the things that make me happy, The Lord is the ONLY thing that can give me TRUE happiness! So, I will continue to pray and read His word. I will continue to fight these unwanted and unwelcomed hormones that are taking over my body!

Please pray for me!